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The school-year is near ended; and I, drained of all left-over hope, and confidence; at least, as related to my academic situation. I have so little motivation to move, yet in my head a desire not to fuck off and blow everything up. I really, really, truly do want to have a strong finish, and pass all of my classes. It (actually) can't turn out any other way, or else I'll sink further, down-into the most blackened, rot-filled depths of myself, and stay that way. Now, is my one and only last-chance. I would die before I graduate high-school at age 20.