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Sometimes, when I sit at my computer during hours late, alone in a dark room with only artificial light, despite my isolation, I feel as if I am being watched. I cannot be myself, or look at things I know I want to see (media of which tends to be socially unacceptable and/or morally grey). Is it only shame, manifest? Or, am I being perceived by something outside of myself I cannot know, nor hide from.